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a beautiful poem
If
If I were a swan, I'd be gone.
If I were a train, I'd be late.
And if I were a good man, I'd talk with you more often than I do.
If I were to sleep, I could dream.
If I were afraid, I could hide.
If I go insane, please don't put your wires in my brain.
If I were the moon, I'd be cool.
If I were a book, I would bend.
If I were a good man, I'd understand the spaces between friends.
If I were alone, I would cry.
And if I were with you, I'd be home and dry.
And if I go insane, will you still let me join in with the game?
If I were a swan, I'd be gone.
If I were a train, I'd be late again.
If I were a good man, I'd talk to you more often than I do.
Roger Waters
If I were a swan, I'd be gone.
If I were a train, I'd be late.
And if I were a good man, I'd talk with you more often than I do.
If I were to sleep, I could dream.
If I were afraid, I could hide.
If I go insane, please don't put your wires in my brain.
If I were the moon, I'd be cool.
If I were a book, I would bend.
If I were a good man, I'd understand the spaces between friends.
If I were alone, I would cry.
And if I were with you, I'd be home and dry.
And if I go insane, will you still let me join in with the game?
If I were a swan, I'd be gone.
If I were a train, I'd be late again.
If I were a good man, I'd talk to you more often than I do.
Roger Waters
Monday, February 8, 2010
theory of relativity and my quest
" Each of us... at some time in our lives, turns to someone ...... and asks..."Why am I here? What was I meant to be?"
Well this has got nothing to do with Einstein. Well actually it does, in certain ways. What I mean to say is that almost everything is relative in this world. Whether it be the sense of right or wrong, good or bad, easy or difficult with respect to one's actions or be it in an aesthetic sense - something is beautiful or ugly and so on. For me the fact is, there is nothing about which one can say that it is absolutely right or absolutely wrong, or absolutely good or absolutely bad. It depends on the observers point of reference, the observer's perspectives. It depends on how the person feels about a certain situation while acting, the person's conscience and experience which determines the actions. And even then things change because the observer's perspectives can change. As a friend said "Only imbeciles do not change"! There are so many different ways to look at the same event. As one brings into consideration more and more different factors the picture keeps changing - it doesn't necessarily mean the picture evolves. Because evolution is also for me a relative thing. What might seem an evolution for someone might mean degradation to someone else. And of course there exists people who use neither conscience nor experience while acting, one can call them instinctive or careless or insensitive, again the judgment here will be relative!
The only absolute truth for me in this world is death. I know it sounds morbid but it is a fact. Every living being on this planet has to die. I am not into life-after-death stuff and there is no proof that there is something after death. So death for me is the only non-relative truth. Of course people can take a philosophical viewpoint and come up with a relativistic view on death! Anyway, those people will not be able to prove their theory. Although it is true that certain things do not need any proof. But like the existence of God one cannot prove the theory of after life and re-birth!
The most important thing I feel is to have respect for others. One might not agree with someone and their opinions but one should respect it. Because opinions are also relative. Its the persons way of looking at things. And it ain't obligatory for two people to have the same view on things. Just because one does not agree with the other person's perspective doesn't mean that the other person is in the wrong. The reason I write about this mumbo-jumbo is increasingly I get the feeling that people around are mostly ego-centric! I mean one does need an ego to survive. Without the sense of 'I' in me I do not think it is possible to understand others. But what is surprising is people want others around himself/herself to understand him/her the way that person is but the same person in general is not putting the same effort to understand others! I mean is it logical? I know CAPTAIN SPOCK would have said "Logic is the beginning of wisdom,..., not the end". But still, isn't it a bit stupid of me to expect others to be aware of my needs and demands if I am myself playing ignorant to the needs and demands of the others? Isn't it stupid of me to expect certain things of others under situations where I myself will not be acting the way I am expecting the others to do? Isn't it irrational to think that my way is the right way and anyone else who doesn't agree with my way is in the wrong? I have myself been guilty on a number of occasions of the things I just mentioned. But I am trying to learn and improve myself. As LT. COMMANDER DATA said "I will continue learning, changing, growing, and trying to become more...than what I am. " Of course this sense of trying to become more than what I am is also relative. What I am trying is to improve myself according to my own expectations - improve myself in a relative way using my own relative sense of right or wrong, good and bad. "Our capacity to leap beyond logic" is what I also use in my growth - I call this capacity my conscience/soul and experience. I know none of us are perfect. After all as DATA put it so aptly "Believing oneself to be perfect is often the sign of a delusional mind." But I need to try evolve in my own way, in my own path, using conscience, logic and experience as guiding lights. It is what I need to do so that when the end comes I can say to myself that I tried, even though my paths might have been flawed at times, but I tried to learn from them, correct myself and continue on my mission. Trying is what I need to have a clear conscience. As CAPTAIN KIRK said "If I hadn't tried, the cost would have been my soul.". And a clear conscience is my quest in this life because I believe ".. there isn't nothing like the sight of an amputated spirit. There is no prosthetic for that."
Well this has got nothing to do with Einstein. Well actually it does, in certain ways. What I mean to say is that almost everything is relative in this world. Whether it be the sense of right or wrong, good or bad, easy or difficult with respect to one's actions or be it in an aesthetic sense - something is beautiful or ugly and so on. For me the fact is, there is nothing about which one can say that it is absolutely right or absolutely wrong, or absolutely good or absolutely bad. It depends on the observers point of reference, the observer's perspectives. It depends on how the person feels about a certain situation while acting, the person's conscience and experience which determines the actions. And even then things change because the observer's perspectives can change. As a friend said "Only imbeciles do not change"! There are so many different ways to look at the same event. As one brings into consideration more and more different factors the picture keeps changing - it doesn't necessarily mean the picture evolves. Because evolution is also for me a relative thing. What might seem an evolution for someone might mean degradation to someone else. And of course there exists people who use neither conscience nor experience while acting, one can call them instinctive or careless or insensitive, again the judgment here will be relative!
The only absolute truth for me in this world is death. I know it sounds morbid but it is a fact. Every living being on this planet has to die. I am not into life-after-death stuff and there is no proof that there is something after death. So death for me is the only non-relative truth. Of course people can take a philosophical viewpoint and come up with a relativistic view on death! Anyway, those people will not be able to prove their theory. Although it is true that certain things do not need any proof. But like the existence of God one cannot prove the theory of after life and re-birth!
The most important thing I feel is to have respect for others. One might not agree with someone and their opinions but one should respect it. Because opinions are also relative. Its the persons way of looking at things. And it ain't obligatory for two people to have the same view on things. Just because one does not agree with the other person's perspective doesn't mean that the other person is in the wrong. The reason I write about this mumbo-jumbo is increasingly I get the feeling that people around are mostly ego-centric! I mean one does need an ego to survive. Without the sense of 'I' in me I do not think it is possible to understand others. But what is surprising is people want others around himself/herself to understand him/her the way that person is but the same person in general is not putting the same effort to understand others! I mean is it logical? I know CAPTAIN SPOCK would have said "Logic is the beginning of wisdom,..., not the end". But still, isn't it a bit stupid of me to expect others to be aware of my needs and demands if I am myself playing ignorant to the needs and demands of the others? Isn't it stupid of me to expect certain things of others under situations where I myself will not be acting the way I am expecting the others to do? Isn't it irrational to think that my way is the right way and anyone else who doesn't agree with my way is in the wrong? I have myself been guilty on a number of occasions of the things I just mentioned. But I am trying to learn and improve myself. As LT. COMMANDER DATA said "I will continue learning, changing, growing, and trying to become more...than what I am. " Of course this sense of trying to become more than what I am is also relative. What I am trying is to improve myself according to my own expectations - improve myself in a relative way using my own relative sense of right or wrong, good and bad. "Our capacity to leap beyond logic" is what I also use in my growth - I call this capacity my conscience/soul and experience. I know none of us are perfect. After all as DATA put it so aptly "Believing oneself to be perfect is often the sign of a delusional mind." But I need to try evolve in my own way, in my own path, using conscience, logic and experience as guiding lights. It is what I need to do so that when the end comes I can say to myself that I tried, even though my paths might have been flawed at times, but I tried to learn from them, correct myself and continue on my mission. Trying is what I need to have a clear conscience. As CAPTAIN KIRK said "If I hadn't tried, the cost would have been my soul.". And a clear conscience is my quest in this life because I believe ".. there isn't nothing like the sight of an amputated spirit. There is no prosthetic for that."
Monday, February 1, 2010
about me!
Well, as my blog name suggests my name is Budha!! Not the one people in this part of the world think me to be! I go by lots of other names - Buddha (which means 'old man' in my language and man, I do look like one), Buddhu (means 'fool'), 'Buddhu Singh' (again means 'fool' but the 'Singh' is supposed to emphasize my foolishness), 'Gumbaat' ( 'stubborn' ) and a few others which i can't recall at this very moment! These names do carry certain true information about me. But what I can tell about myself is that I am selfish, sadist, pessimist, chauvinist and misogynist by nature. I lack almost any sense of humor - actually sometimes I do get jokes - but it takes me a week or so to get it! I have, according to some, what we call in my part of the world, the skin of a rhinoceros! By the same reasoning I am immune to sarcasm and wit or almost anything. Well that last bit is not totally true! I am quite sensitive to fire or cold or snow! I am supposedly doing my PhD in Microelctronics. Although I have no clue as to what I am actually doing! The only reason I am where I am now is because I wanted to run away from my work place - the industry I was working in which treated me like a slave (and we are made to believe that slavery no longer exist, ha!) - working day in day out, including weekends. While they paid me lots of money, I was never given the time to spend it other than pay for my house rent, the place where I stayed which was only used by me for sleeping at night, the occasional meals I was allowed to have and other bills and taxes life brings along with it!
Ever since I was young I wanted to be a VULCAN like SPOCK or TUVOK - people I affectionately call 'emotionless bastards'! Those who don't know what I am talking about should grow up and start watching STAR TREK immediately! And like VULCANS I look upon human beings as an interesting species! Like SPOCK, I feel insulted when someone calls me human! I totally lack the emotions of love, sympathy and compassion. I always wanted to be in total control of my emotions (other than the ones I lack which I just mentioned ) - and I do manage it most of the time but alas, there are some side-effects! When I do fail to exercise my control I am prone to wild aggressive nature, always accompanied by verbal filth emanating from my mouth and sometimes accompanied by physical actions! Unlike my namesake, I have no respect for anyone, actually I think neither did he! I treat almost anyone and everyone with contempt. I believe myself to be the 'superior one' ( not the 'special one' like Jose Mourinho - everyone is special but only one can be superior - well there goes the first 'Budha-ism'!). I used to have the emotion of 'jealousy' but my 'superior' sense of feeling has allowed me to conquer that - after all if I am superior there is nothing anyone can have which is superior to what I possess - so I no longer feel jealous! I can treat people with a smile while on the inside I am thinking of torturing and killing that person! I am an atheist - but I have been told that my religion of birth does support the concept of atheism! So if people do call me by my religion of birth I do not feel that much insulted! I live and die by football - I can go a couple of days without food but lack of football depresses me and makes me vulnerable in my pursuit of VULCANISM - it can lead me to sadism and cannibalism but till now their outward manifestations has been restricted to myself alone - but that does not mean that some poor soul will not have to bear its brunt one day! I also try to play the game sometimes but I suck at it - but that doesn't prevent me in thinking that it is my divine right to win the game for the team I am playing for. I hate losing - for that matter in any sports or any field. I will do anything to win whether it be by hook or crook! I love to argue about anything to the extent that sometimes I manage to pick up an argument with myself! My biggest dream is to go to space, so that the people around me doesn't have to tolerate me anymore. To be honest I was being polite. Fact is politeness and honesty are not in my blood or whatever that is flowing in my veins or whatever they are called since I do not consider myself human! As my 'superiority' complex makes me feel, I think I will be better off without this world and its people! I will make my own planet where 'Budha-ism's will rule over its inhabitants. On second thoughts I don't believe I will accept anyone else in my planet, which means I will have total control and there will be no discontent or ill-feelings in my world. I will create my own 'perfect' world!
Well i think it is enough of an introduction. This blog is going to be my own way of 'stress busting' à la 'BHEJA FRY' or if you are too much into originals, 'LE DîNER DE CONS'! I will come back later to pester you, who dare to read this blog, with even more crap, about anything and everything I want to write about! And trust me on this, if you think it cannot get any worse, I bet you will find out soon. Until then, live long and prosper!
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